Life Happening

I am twenty-five now... and it's a very sobering thought.

All my life I thought that by the time I was twenty I'd be married, with some children... and that my life would be entirely different.

I also assumed that by being married my life would automatically be fulfilled and that I'd be perfectly happy and content.

Consequently I spent many years in "waiting for my life to start."

Since then I have realized that being married does not and will not and CANNOT fix things that are wrong or broken to start with. Marriage will only amplify any problems or areas of discontent that I now carry.

But it's sobering to wake up on the morning of one's twenty-fifth birthday and to realize that one is halfway to fifty... and on top of that to realize that one has not accomplished things that one thought would be accomplished long before now. Yes, I am one.

But I am also very thankful for lots of things in my life now. I am very thankful that I am where the Lord has me and I'm thankful that I'm busy and not waiting.

I'm thankful I didn't get married before realizing the things I have come to realize, and that God has taught me so much that will eventually be useful to marriage some day.

I'm thankful that God is always teaching me and growing me into the person He wants me to become. I'm so thankful that I have waked up and am listening to His beautiful voice and am learning how to become a beautiful person.

So if I reach my thirtieth birthday and am still (God forbid!! =) unmarried, I will know that it's because I had more to learn and that I needed to become more beautiful. And perhaps that is all that God wants for me. And that will be okay, once I become more of the person I'm supposed to be.

I am very thankful for my twenty-five single years. I hope the next twenty-five will be even better spent in growing in my Lord and Savior: Jesus Christ.